I don't know what my mind was processing in my sleep, but I awoke with a jolt. Immediately, I felt anxious. I thought, what am I supposed to be doing, no clients, no house, no kids. I can't even work on the house, since it is in a drying phase. I have no routine, just many gigantic unknowns. I felt immobilized, I wanted to sleep for a long time. Truthfully, I just wanted to go home. Loss and sadness will come and go. It is normal. My body felt weary, not necessarily open to an exercise cure. Then I remembered I had a coffee date with Ellen. I will not let her down. She will be there for me. My day shifted, I have something important to do. Love and Connection..... the essence of healing ❤️